Cassius Warrington

Private to Self
This is not good.

Rachael's happiness is one of my top priorities. She deserves the best. Is Austin really that? I'm worried about her. I try to see the best in everyone and Austin is okay. What if he's stringing her along? I wouldn't put it past him. If he's just doing this to mess her about I'll punch him in the face hex him into next week throttle the bastard do something i'll regret.

It's taking all of my self control not to meddle too much. I can't stop myself any more. I can't just sit by and do nothing. Tyler will sort it.
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Private to Rachael
What was that all about the other night? I woke up at around 3 in the morning to use the toilet and you were in our dormitory. In bed. With Austin. Cuddling.

I saw those marks on your neck yesterday too. Are you two

What's gotten into you? This isn't like you at all and I really, really don't like it.
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Private to Tyler
Did you know your sister and Austin Lynch are seeing each other together sharing a bed giving each other lovebites I don't know? 
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I'm gay. You know, in case anybody missed my epic charging out of the closet on Tuesday (sorry again to any boy I shouted at! You're attractive, what can I really say?) It's been on my mind a lot lately and it's been eating me up inside. It eased a little after I told my closest friends, but I finally feel comfortable enough to share it with the world. I'm sure this revelation might lose me friends, but if you want to fall out with me over something like this, you obviously weren't worth it in the first place.

So look out, world. I'm ready to face you head on now.

Private to Rachael
I know our relationship is fine now, but I wanted to apologise again about the kiss and everything. It feels as though I led you on and it hasn't strayed far from my mind since it all came to light. If there was any way to change all of this to make you happy, I would do it in a heartbeat. You're my best friend and knowing that I hurt you still makes me upset. I hope that in time, I can forgive myself for breaking your heart (even if none of it was intentional).

If it's any constellation, you're going to make some boy very happy one day. You have to tell me about him first though, so I can see if he's good enough for you.
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Private to Heath
I hexed your meds to look like Bertie Botts beans last week. Sorry for betraying your trust and forcing you to take them. I just want you to be healthy. I don't nag you about it to be a killjoy and I know you don't like taking them. I just worry about you a lot and knowing that you've taken them eases my mind a little.
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I don't know why i'm confessing everything, but it feels refreshing.

Private to Michael Hopkins, Hugo Weasley, Asher Smith, Calum Kirke, Nikolas Swann, Jack Cuffe, Merrill Goldstein, Tyler MacMillan & Grant Page Jr
I'm so sorry for what happened today. I-

I don't know what to say. Just, you know, sorry.
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Private to Self
Bugger, bugger, bugger!

That wasn't how I wanted everybody to find out. I might just lock myself in the dorm for the rest of the year and get Rachael to bring me food and homework. That sounds like a plausible plan. That way nobody will ever see my bright red face.

Seriously, why did it have to be that? Now everybody will know and I-

I don't even know.
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Private to Rachael
I'm so embarrassed. It wasn't supposed to come out like this!

What am I supposed to do?
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Private to 6th year Hufflepuff boys except Heath
It's Heath's birthday on Wednesday and I think we should do something for him. He hasn't had the best week (as i'm sure all of you have noticed), so I think it would be nice if we all banded together and gave him a good birthday. I have no idea what we could do, but chances are he doesn't want anything huge. That rules out a party, because if we left it with an open invitation, some people who Heath hates might not want to see may turn up and that would ruin everything.

He's coming of age, so it should be special. We need to remind him that most of us all of us are here for him and that we care.

Do any of you have any ideas?
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Private to Benjamin Montague [added later]
I am so tempted to award you house points! Thank you for kicking Austin's arse. If there's one person who deserves it right now, it's him.
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Private to Josie Wood [also added later]
I've heard you're quite the artist when it comes to scrapbooking. I was wondering if you'd be willing to help me make one for Heath, seeing as it's his birthday. Any help would be greatly appreciated!
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It's only just occurred to me how frightening the man in the catalogue looks! This is my costume for Halloween and I promise not to look half as scary as the man modelling it! For those of you who have no idea what the costume is, it's a Highwayman! Like Dick Turpin, or the Highwayman from the Muggle poem by Alfred Noyes. It seemed a rather original idea and I haven't seen or heard anybody else mention it, so I thought i'd jump on it.

Private to Self
I feel so much happier now that the people I care about know. Everything feels much lighter, as though a massive weight has been lifted. Of course, not everybody reacted well to the news. I honestly don't care though. I feel a lot better with myself and I suppose that's what matters the most.
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It would be wise for all boys to stay away from the bathrooms today, it seems. Well, unless you want to end up in the hospital wing. Whilst Prank Week is a monthly thing, if you're going to participate, please try not to injure anybody. The results might be severe and the consequences even more so.

Private to Hufflepuff 6th year boys
I was wondering if you were all free tonight? I have something I want need to talk to you all about.
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Private to Self
Rachael skipped class. She never skips class. This is all my fault. I led her on without realising and now she hates me. Sara told me that Rachael was okay, but I don't believe her. Of course she isn't okay. I broke her heart, and knowing that I did that is causing mine to break too.

Well done, Cassius. You've really messed this up, boy.
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Private to Rachael
We should need to talk.

Rach, i'm really sorry i've been avoiding you for the past few days. I have something really important to say to you that has been on my mind for a long time, and I can't keep it a secret any more.

Please meet me outside the common room at 8PM tonight. That way, we can patrol and not be disturbed.
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Prank Week isn't until next week, whoever deemed it funny to slip half of the school a love potion. Please refrain from pulling such a drastic prank again, please. A lot of people have been and will be hurt as a result and it just isn't right.

Private to Self
I kissed Rachael. Rachael. My best friend, Rachael.

I don't even know why. What possessed me to do that? I mean, if the rumours are true and it was a love potion, why did I kiss a girl? Surely I should have leaned in to the nearest boy? Of course, i'm happy I didn't, but--

I don't find her attractive. She's beautiful, yes, but she isn't exactly my type. At least, I don't think she is. What an embarrassing situation if i've told my parents i'm gay when i'm actually not. I am though, aren't I? It was a moment of madness.

This is bad. Very, very bad. I don't know how Rachael feels about this, so i'm going to avoid her for as long as possible. I love her (as a friend, of course), but I can't handle this right now.

At least i'm not a kiss virgin now. That's the only good thing to come out of this.
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Private to Self
I told my parents.

I owled them just now and I let it all out. I know it isn't something that one should hear in a letter, but I couldn't wait until Christmas to tell them. I hope they understand and don't think i'm a freak bad person. If I could change it, I would. But I can't. I just can't help it. I spent two hours staring at the parchment, lost for words. How do you tell your parents that you're gay? I tried several times to write it, but I couldn't seem to manage. After taking a few deep breaths and realising that I don't have to be ashamed about it, I just wrote it. The words seemed to come easily after that. I swear though, as I watched that owl fly out of sight, my stomach dropped and is still laying on the floor of the owlery.

They're going to be so disappointed in me.
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Private to Students
The party was fantastic. I can't remember ever having that much fun before. Happy birthday to the Finnigan twins, once again! I do hope both of you had a good time!

I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank the beautiful Rachael MacMillan for accompanying me and for having a dress in the same shade as my own outfit. It was very much appreciated, love! You looked stunning, as did all of the girls in attendance!
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Private to Self
Okay, it's definitely a problem. In a room filled with beautiful girls in pretty dresses, all I could look at were the boys. I don't think I can deny it any more. I think i'm gay.

Oh.

What are my parents going to say? What are my friends going to think? Merlin, if this gets out...
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Has everybody finished their Arithmancy essay yet? I have two inches to go and I can't think of anything else to add. Help, please?

Private to Self
I don't know what's wrong with me. Something must be. Nobody else around here is like me, from what I know. How many boys who walk these corridors don't stop to look at all of the pretty girls who pass them? How many of them stop and stare as the male members of the Quidditch teams walk by? How many boys try so hard to concentrate on simple, everyday tasks only to feel a snitch-sized lump form in their throat and have to excuse themselves before they break down in front of everyone? How many of them spend all of lunchtime locked in the seventh floor bathroom, hoping to Merlin that another boy doesn't walk in and hear them crying to themselves?

So far, I only count me.

I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. It's almost as though i'm wearing a size too small in an unflattering cut and colour. It's doing nothing for me and it needs to be sorted. I need a proper fitting, I need to be me again. I don't want to be this. I just want to...be.

Who am I? I don't even know anymore.
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What in Merlin's name happened today? I was eating breakfast and suddenly my hair is standing on end and my tie is hitting me in the face! It wasn't a good look for me. Or anybody else, for that matter.

Frankly, I was horrified to see what some people wear under their robes. I spent the majority of the day with a hand shielding my eyes. Really, people. Ladies, how can thongs be comfortable? I think i'm mentally scarred for life.

I do hope the effects wear off soon. Trying to eat dinner was awful and I can't concentrate on my work when people walk past looking like gravity has taken a little trip to Vegas.

Private to Self
Okay, now i'm worried. It's one thing to shield your eyes from everyone, but another to find your gaze wandering to the abs of the boys who pass you in the corridor. Some boys even took their shirts off...

What's gotten into me?
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